Trying to be proud of myself

This is a short post, guys. The title is big, but I just need a few words to say what I want to say. I need a break of making posts in here and reading mental health stuff in general. It’s obvious I’m picking this as an obsession, reassurance I think is called. And to be honest I want to stop being that person who screams “look look I have this thing look at me”, I want to give you some tips and real coping mechanisms, something that will help people. I know talking about your pain and experience help people too. But that’s just step number 0.5, knowing you are not alone. Finding community. That’s cool. I needed it too. But now, I need to come back to my interests, my old hobbies, don’t take me wrong, I still love psychology, but… c’mon how much abnormal psychology stuff do I really need to read?

So, I hope you get excited next time when I post something, who knows? Maybe I’ll comeback with something really worthy.

Donald Trump memes are the cure for anxiety

HILARY LITERALLY CLEANED THE FLOOR WITH HIS ORANGE FACE.

I’m not a fan of Hilary but damn, sir, she went in there with that look in her eyes “you ain’t ready for this sips tea“. Have you ever saw someone so calm while throwing the dirty laundry to a person’s face? Let’s be real, I gotta give her a clap.

But the best part is all this memes flowing around tumblr, they make my life more easy to be honest. My favorite one so far is this one with Hilary looking at the camera like in the office.

In other news, I tried yesterday to go to sleep at a decent time. Total fail. Reasons why, first, because I feel less anxiety at night time, second, because I got distracted watching youtube videos cofcofas always… what is life? what is will-power? I need to have at least 8 hours of sleep to not feel tired the next day so I had to change my wake-up time, 4 hours wasted. This morning I felt anxious from the moment I opened my eyes, I had to really really kick my butt out of the bed, thank god my mom did food because I wasn’t feeling like cooking. Listen to me, don’t cook when you feel sad, angry or anxious, I don’t know if you believe in this, but… You are what you eat, better be careful. So if you’re going to cook make yourself comfortable and try to calm down first.

I tried this time to prepare my clothes the night before, it does helps, my brain feels like it have something less to think about. I recommend to do this if you are all over the place at mornings, like me.

Later on I decided I wasn’t well enough to take a bus and be out by myself, so I changed my plans to go to get my nails done to dye my hair instead. So I bought the dye kit and went to the hair salon near to my house, that way is more cheaper, gotta help myself out . OH and I bought the cutest nails stickers at the pharmacy, it have bears and cute flowers on the pattern.

I still have a couple things to do, I’ve to do my 10 minutes meditation for the day and maybe watch a german movie. Goodnight guys~

Schedule for tomorrow, working in a coping plan

I read a bunch of articles about the wonders that scheduling your day do to anxiety today, I thought you know… I have nothing to lose let’s give it a try, so here I am trying to set all my activities in different hours, considering eating times and also, knowing it can take longer to achieve each activity than I think. I’m trying to add certain coping rituals through out the day so I can manage my anxiety, also I’m testing the results of each coping mechanism. For tomorrow I’m planning in doing meditation and working with music and smells. So there’s that. I’ll keep this blog update specially in this topic, so if you’re curious keep an eye on your news board.

I’m kind of worry with all the “rituals” thing, I know it’s just a word but yo… I’ve OCD and that’s a strong word for me, so I’ll try to yes, make a routine, but if I see I obsess over it or I get anxiety from not doing the thing I’ll probably stop. Let’s see what happens.

I’m gonna post my schedule for tomorrow in hopes I can success if I post it here. Enjoy seeing my activities. I’m staring with a few for now, maybe after tomorrow I’ll add more so I can get used to it slowly. 

8:00 a.m

WAKE UP TIME:

• To make sure I feel safe: 
• Some smell sticks
• Silent/Music
  • Make the bed

BREAKFAST: (take your meds along breakfast)

• Around 8:30 a.m, don’t feel pressure with the time. But try to eat early.

9:30/10:00 a.m 

10 MINUTES MEDITATION:

• Use the new meditation app or YT videos. 10 or 15 minutes will do.

SHOWER/GETTING READY:

• Prepare your clothes first, as always.
• Make sure the water is hot and you feel safe (check 8:00 a.m suggestions)
• —- from 2 to 3 hours —-

12:00/13:00 p.m

EATING (?):

• If you feel like it.

GERMAN:

• Place your stuff in the dinner table, pick the music you feel in the mood for. Try to: Study in 15 minutes sets and 5/8 minutes of breaks.

13:00/14:00 p.m

EAT IF YOU DIDN’T BEFORE/FREE TIME UNTIL 16:00 p.m

16:00 to 17:40:

GET READY FOR GOING TO THE MEDITATION PLACE

Try to go to sleep over 22:00 p.m to 23:00 p.m